amanda

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 00:56:23 GMT

this is my old journal..pretty funny right?

don't throw yourslef like that infront of me.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 04:33:29 GMT

So, i havn't written in a while due to my extremly busy schedule. I think i have a few things under control now and can acutally continue this. Cause, i mean it was fun. some times.

Well once again Bieselin hosts a fantastic party. hah in honor of her 17th birthday. thats right folks im a real life genuine seventeen year old. in less then a month i will be the proud owner of a full liscense. i hate to dissapoint you all but...i will not, i repeat, will not be a taxi. unless my black maxima suddenly has some sort of transformation and grows a sign out of the roof and turns an obnoixsous yellow color, i am not a taxi.

ive been into myself latly and thats good. just chillen out. you know, somthing i dont get to do to much. i think its definatly mellowed me out. altough, if im in that mood, i will not deal with you and you will know it. unfortunaly.

its depressing. i havnt seen a show in a month. i am going to cry. how do u go from seeing at least 2 shows each week to one? you dont. thats like cutting off a junkie to thier supply. yea it gave me a high. shows always gave me an amazing high. after every show i felt like i ruled the world, and maybe i did. so back to the point, im on the hunt for shows once again.

i miss the city

im going there wendsday.

christmas is thursday. i dont care.

yes that is sad.

odd. i havnt been a party animal this break. very odd. but thats what summer is for. i miss the gang from the summer. it was always just us. and we always had the most amazing time, it never mattered what we did, just sitting around in kyles basement was awsome or walking around the streets. kyle amy justin bobbo alex tim and of course i forget the rest...well im done cause im exhausted.

goodnight. dream of periwinkle caravans and pikeys.

Sun, 12 Oct 2003 03:07:09 GMT

im deff a mess.

haha i ahvnte written for the last 2 weeks cause ive been busy. last weekend i got ona guest list for a hopesfall juliana theory show. beacuse i am aamazing. the week was boring.

this thursyda barn. with som plant and fire, uf yiouy7 catcg my drift.

to many meds\

allcohol.

i right later.

oopss hahaha.

and i talked to joe, because i was liek this, i feel bad for him i should just get him out, i mean he is, which isnt good cause he really was the only one keeping me from gettling like i am now.

npose bleeds?? ..the other thing and toher things...not vgood, shit

Mon, 29 Sep 2003 21:16:18 GMT

stole this from amy who stole it from nikki

[Current Clothes] jeans and and t and a sweatshirt
[Current Taste] your mom
[Current Hair] down and wavy
[Current Smell] nothing?
[Current thing(s) I ought to be doing] home work
[Current Desktop Picture] pic of my friends horse that i altered
[Current Favorite Artist] too many
[Current Favorite Group] same
[Current Book you're reading] just finished..here goes..normal girl, gossip girl and girl..hahah that is so great
[Current CD in CD Player] mix
[Current DVD in player] donnie darko
[Current Refreshment] iced tea
[Current Worry] everything
[LAST THING/PERSON]
[ You Touched ] they key board....
[ You Talked to ] sharon
[ You Hugged ] minneo
[ You Instant messaged ]mell
[ You Yelled At ] ma
[ You Kissed ] nos commentes

[FAVORITE]
[Food] um too many good foods to name
[Drink] a good pina coloda
[Color] red
[Album] no clue
[Shoes] good ol navy blue converse
[Candy] dark chocolate
[Animal] horse
[Movie] american beauty, donnie darko, breakfastclub, empire records, ferris, blow, fight club...to many more to name
[Vegetable] artichoke
[Fruit] strawberry
[Cartoon] rocko

[ARE YOU]
[Understanding] some times
[Open-minded] id say
[Arrogant] no
[Insecure] som times
[Interesting] ehh
[Random] hahha
[Hungry] yea
[Friendly] Yes
[Smart] sort of?
[Moody] um yea....
[Childish] yes, in a good way
[Independent] depends what mood im in...yea
[Hard working] if its at all fun
[Organized] ha come look at my room...or locker..or..me
[Healthy] yes
[Emotionally Stable] ehh
[Shy] it depends, usually no
[Difficult] yea
[Bored Easily] yes
[Thirsty] Yes
[Responsible] yea
[Actor] somtimes
[Angry] yea
[Sad] no?
[Happy] i think....
[Hyper] depends on my moood
[Talkative] again above

[WHO DO YOU WANT TO]
[Kill] no names but i have a list
[Slap] you
[Get Real Wasted With] anybody....
[Get High With] the boys
[Look Like] a few ppl
[Talk To Offline] people ive been meeting
[Talk To Online] who?

Name Four Things That You Wished You Had:
-a boyfriend....kinda
-fun
- all whole bunch of new cds
-a horse

Name Four Scents You Love:
- my four favorite perfumes
- blairs house...full of cinnominy smell
- fire places
- boys..thier cologne is yummy

Name Two People You Know Best:
- amy
- melissa liz carly cas and others

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About:
-how to get out of my oboe lesson
-how to fit all this fun crap in over the weekend
-how not to be a messy mess
-how to fix myself

Name Four Things You Did Today:
- took too much...
- pigged out
- thought
-listened to music

APPEARANCE
- hair: long wavy blonde brown red..take your pick
- height: 5'6"
- favorite part: hu?

LAST THING YOU...
- did: got angry
- read: a book on backpacking through europe
- watched on tv: music videos

EITHER / OR
- club or house party: house
- tea or coffee: tea
- high achiever or easy-going: easy-going
- cats or dogs: dogs
- pen or pencil: pen
-gloves or mittens: gloves
- cassette or cd: CD
- snuff or cigarettes: my sisters going to read this
- coke or pepsi: coke
- matches or a lighter: lighters
- sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: what

LAST TIME..
- last movie you saw: donnie darko
- last movie you saw on the big screen: hum...dno?
- last thing you had to drink: iced tea
- last thing you ate: left over dinner
- last time you cried: yesterday
- last time you smiled: eh
- last time you laughed: seriously laughed? long time
- last time you danced: a while ago
- last person you hugged: micheal
- last thing you said: No.
- last person you talked to online: amy that whore
- last thing you smelled: insense

DO YOU...?
- smoke: uhhh hah
- do drugs: well
- sleep with a stuffie: there around
- have a dream that keeps coming back: yea since i was 8
- believe there is life on other planets: there has to be
- read the newspaper: if theres somthing good
- have any gay or lesbian friends: once?
- believe in miracles: yes
- believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: hopefully
- consider yourself tolerant of others: if i want to be
- consider police a friend or foe: arg
- like the taste of alcohol: yea
- believe in astrology: no
- pray: no
- go to church: where?
- have any secrets: yea
- have any pets: yea
- go to or plan to go to college: yea i guess
- have a degree: no
- wear hats: somtimes
- have any piercings: yes
- have any tattoos: no
- hate yourself: no....
- wish on stars: no its so goddamned light poluted, maybe if i was in oregon
- like your handwriting: indifferent
- believe in witches: no
- believe in Satan: dno
- believe in ghosts: ya
- trust others easily: no
- like sarcasm: yes
- take walks in the rain: yes
- kiss with your eyes closed: yea but opens kinda cool once in a while
- sing in the shower: yess
Last cigarette: never?
Last car ride: this afternoon
Last good cry: thursday
Last library book checked out: somthing on medicine or horses
Last movie seen: UGH DONNIE DARKO ASK ME AGAIN BITCH
Last book read: ASK ME AGAIN AND ILL KILL YOU
Last cuss word uttered: fuck
Last crush: no
Last phone call: nikki?
Last TV show watched: music videos
Last time showered: hah 2 and a half days ago
Last shoes worn: converse
Last cd played: mixy mix
Last item bought: t shirts from u o
Last downloaded: pixies
Last annoyance: mom
Last disappointment: me
Last thing written: in my jounral.handwritten
Last key used: n
Last word spoken: no

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 14:29:40 GMT

hah last night....

mel came over at 6, we started making drinks ahha som failures....longisland iced tea, was very good....milkshakes and vodka..thats a no go. so we finsihed that bottle melly. carly came over a short time after and had som sippy sippys. then james iorio came over cause he was giving melissa a ride som where or hanging out with her but watever he was here. soon after kyle joined us and gave me a delicious present, cannnnt wait to use it. amy arrived and then we all decided waht to do..james was gunna drive me kyle and amy to babylon hs, carly and liz to dans and melissa to wherever.
so we get to babylon hs in search of a soccer game to see brandon and we get tehre and theres no game so we galavanted around babylon and into the corner store and thers rciky and all of his friends were there..that was interesting. so finnaly we continue our journeys and we go to brandons house get his cell number and walk back up to mnk hwy. and amy calls none other tahn jeff rhodes. so this boy pulls up in a hott car...its his dads but it didnt matter..hah. and he takes us to the soccer game. its over so we hang out with brandon and all of his friends we where supposed to go to a party there but we got impatiant and got picked up by the trainstation and went to tims. minneo and these two girls where there. me and amy like them very much but they live so far away :( oh well....hmm pool tables are good for one thing.... hahha. i must have slapped kyle last night over 50 times, notably hard 4 times..ahh good night

today shall be more fun..hangin out with barker

where is my happy ending? over there

Sat, 20 Sep 2003 21:49:07 GMT

so me melisssa carly went to the beach today....many adventures

we went to the nude beach.....uhhh
"theres a girl" GIRL?? WHERE??

and random all of the sudden not since 8th grade making fun of katie.....funny face has got to go!!
me- what is that?
her- what? ungghhmmuble
me- THAT!??!

more random qoutes-
it was WHOGE!!

WHERE STRANDED!!! my moms not comming till 4!!
amanda...its 3:35...

wheres liz? theres no one to make fun of

eww...its just like floppin around- carly

hmm gotta go pregame with this melissa chick.....hopin for an awesome night

i went crazy again today

Fri, 19 Sep 2003 01:17:13 GMT

GSXRZ181: what up g money?
BeautiiflDisastr: nothing...but a rather large number of my friends think there black....
GSXRZ181: like who beotch?
BeautiiflDisastr: well you
GSXRZ181: i aint no fuckin negro.........im white as a grain of rice in a glass of milk in a snowstorm

mel763: http://www.ebaumsworld.com/badgers.html
BeautiiflDisastr: wat is wrong with you
BeautiiflDisastr: how long does it go
mel763: not sure
BeautiiflDisastr: forever?
mel763: hahahha i have no idea but its so great
BeautiiflDisastr: yes fantastic
BeautiiflDisastr: it makes no sense
mel763: thats why it whoops ass
mel763: it reminds me of tomas
mel763: i could see him as the writer of this song
BeautiiflDisastr: m y brother?>
mel763: yes
mel763: hes so random like that
BeautiiflDisastr: haha nice, i would be proud
BeautiiflDisastr: ahh the joys of randomness
mel763: what did u keep saying in science
mel763: from homestar
mel763: burned....or something
BeautiiflDisastr: you look burnt..or dead
mel763: haha yes
mel763: say that to liz tomorrow
mel763: fuck shes going away
mel763: ok then carly
BeautiiflDisastr: hahahah
BeautiiflDisastr: alright
BeautiiflDisastr: i mean she is the tannest
BeautiiflDisastr: so she kinda is the burntest
mel763: yep- shes the brownest of all
BeautiiflDisastr: hark..we must hit liz in the face
BeautiiflDisastr: with a tennis ball soon
BeautiiflDisastr: or racket
mel763: hahah
BeautiiflDisastr: maybe i can loose control one day and throw the racket
BeautiiflDisastr: and be like
mel763: haha
BeautiiflDisastr: ahhhhhhhhhh it just flew outta my hands
mel763: its just so much more funnier abusing liz then anyone else
mel763: danielle would like break in half
mel763: stef would cry and go home
BeautiiflDisastr: hahahahahahahha
mel763: liz takes the abuse
BeautiiflDisastr: hah.
BeautiiflDisastr: yea
BeautiiflDisastr: no one abuses me
mel763: ditto
BeautiiflDisastr: i abuses you
mel763: i fight back
mel763: hence the time with the cake mix
BeautiiflDisastr: yea
BeautiiflDisastr: you bastard
mel763: :-)
mel763: hey u used to like slap me in the face for no reason in gym
mel763: id have like marks and people would think i was abused
mel763: bite marks...huge hand prints across my face and legs...u used to lick ur hand and then slap me with it..god knows why
BeautiiflDisastr: hha it made it hurt..more...
mel763: urnot kidding
mel763: then we had the spitting phase
BeautiiflDisastr: ohhhhhh man
BeautiiflDisastr: walking home from your house that day
BeautiiflDisastr: or to
mel763: yea from the baseball game
mel763: we ran in the house tring to spit eachother
mel763: and one time at ur old house after i got u back..u opened the door and nailed u in the face
BeautiiflDisastr: shit yea
BeautiiflDisastr: hahah
mel763: i had a dream about that girl me u and stef called...fluffynouga
mel763: t
mel763: from like massachussets..ill never forget ur face wen ur parents walked in the door and u just started hanging up the phone every time it rung as theyre talking to u
BeautiiflDisastr: yea
BeautiiflDisastr: thanks....

he actually imed me today....no im not freakin in love with him ne more, it was just extremly nice, and made me feel better...i think...

dno ne more..but i definatly almost snapped today and it scared the hell outta me. im gunna get myslef in so much trouble, very soon.

I don't know where the sunbeams end and starlight begins

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 01:44:01 GMT

i feel good. im extremly content right now, and i dont no why. i just had a good day....diner with dan beau jay barker and greg. there so hysterical it was alot of fun. i need to hang out with them more again.

thennn drivers ed...lisa geneseo or watever is in my car, senior she is. i like her, i never knew she um knew me..haha probly cause she knows mike...

after that i went to rins, havnt been there in a milion years and stole her konstintine music, haha even though i already had it...

OFF TO COLORGaurd.. heh it was fun, we didnt do any color gaurd, i drew a little, we all told stories and listened to jack johnson, then ricky tried to help me skate board it was just funny..

no but the best part of the night was tackling nikki right b4 i left. hah into the middle of the road as my mom pulled up...weee

woo hurricane, i hope..i wanna walk down the street and get blown away, yep.

heyyyy you guys do this now:
-check out the website
-download:
she will be loved- maroon 5 (( yea yea i know))
enjoy- bjork
ps the love is black- vendetta red
asleep - the smiths
slip like space- armor for sleep
-read:
knocked out by my nuga nugas
girl
more too comme....sleepy time...

YOU LOOK BURNT......OR DEAD

what would you do w/o me?

Mon, 15 Sep 2003 01:39:50 GMT

today/late last night.....up till 3 30 doing nothing, thats what it does.
woke up at 7 with amy went to special ed soccer to help the kids, it was so fun. theeeen back to my house...kyle came over with the goods then amy left and it was just me and good ole kyle. finshed those candy buggers off..mmmm. ah we watched half of about a boy then half of ferris and listened to jack johnson brushfire fairy tales cause its the better one. hmph.

it was veryy funn.

then did somthing i shouldnt have and went off to SAT course...hahaha. woo. cant wait to get up for school tommorow

i love thissss.....

gividaway gividaway gividaway now

Sun, 14 Sep 2003 02:33:01 GMT

woo. just got home from hanging out in westbabs/lindy. it was chriss house..but sean and juan where there. there so rediculously freakin funny. it was just a good time. i was bitten about 6 times by somone named sean...thanks... :)

bmw are good for one thing...no it was rather uncomfortable...

SCORE minneos on, and i get to listen to rhcp wooo fuckin amazing...i wish i was there

ahhaah me and amy are dancing with the phone...

mmmm fake blood.

hmm what would you do if i took it out?

and we can stay like this forever...

Sat, 13 Sep 2003 03:35:37 GMT

todays plans changed..so much for seeing matchstick man.

i shall see once upon a time in mexico tommorow with liss amy n pam becuase johnny depp is amaaazing.

tonight/today- went home with kyle, i dont even no what we did but we just wasted alot of time and it was fun. at about 6 amy came over then justin and then matt. they all started jamming and at one point i was sitting back and thinking omg i am really here? there so amazing this is so great...and yea i was there and i was just all smilily. by then we where all on somthing and drinking. it was funny.and stupid, but watever. haah i had control!! sad pathetic meeee

so today i was supposed to go with danjones to conan but he took jess cause she has been having a bad time latly or so i hear :( so she deserves it.

shizzzzz. i left my camera at the gaaaaaaaarnets. and the adobe photoshop which i am so excited to begin...woo! anddddddd heeeeeey im goin to purchase with amy in the city so excited and im positive i can get in there. well just because i am so goddamned smart and hardworking...right.

do ya miss the exciting ness of meeeee? i dooooooo

just so you know i wanted to lay like that forever... :)

tommorow? riding? chiziiling wiht barker? dan? whhhhaaaat call my cellll

Thu, 11 Sep 2003 23:35:13 GMT

SDsmolik: u know wut im doin
SDsmolik: i gettin off
SDsmolik: from watchin the bears
SDsmolik: theyr still at it
BeautiiflDisastr: your so sad
SDsmolik: and its hotter and sexier
SDsmolik: and i love it
SDsmolik: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
BeautiiflDisastr: i bet it is
SDsmolik: u love it
SDsmolik: more than i do
SDsmolik: so hot
BeautiiflDisastr: damn straight i love it
SDsmolik: who can resist two bears tied together in the posisions of the kamasuetra
BeautiiflDisastr: not your mom
SDsmolik: she cant no one can
SDsmolik: not even my dog
SDsmolik: or the birds
SDsmolik: or the aroplanes
BeautiiflDisastr: your getting carried away

we had a bit of an exciting lunch today. kellis teddy grahms where stuck together and they where having sex...so we wrote a poem...later to come

maybe just for the weekend,,,we could be somthing

Thu, 11 Sep 2003 01:51:32 GMT

tommorow...should be interesting, im kinda nervous.

but today- it was ok..nothing to horrible. glitter wars at school, durning gym and lunch haha i am the queen of that game as some of you know.

after school...just me and barker where supposed to hang out and watch american beauty but kyle amy and nikki came and micheal has it at college...sooo we went outside and layed in the grass. hahah ready, while me barker and amy went inside to make ppj kyle and nikki stayed outside in the grass. ten mins later i walk outside crawl up to kyle and notice he doesnt move...so i start pulling his crazy long hair and he still doesnt moove. then me rielly barker and amy circle him and finnally hes like what?? oh i fell asleep. it was great. nikki was sleeping to i think, that beast. any way i took more pictures, a couple cool ones of amy , a few of barker and som really cool ones of nikki. but she doesnt like them. so f yew. hah. i m going now...

BUT I MUST GO TO A SHOW ON FRIDAY...feels like i havent been to one in forever, butt..there is a show on thursday. tripside is playing.

ohh whoa i still didnt write about the straylight run show...it was amaaaazing..this girl michelle sings with them she sings on the tell all your friends cd too you can hear her. shes cool. boy night out played too, they where awesome. haha the lead singer of tripside was there taping them. with all his crazy hair and his crazy hat he looked pretty cool...

.....i thought i was going...... so bye

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 02:37:59 GMT

im retarted. i didnt mean to publish that yet. soo...where i left off.

school was ok, ran around with my digital, failed a math quiz cause i never pay attention to anything, had fun at lunch trying to get pics of kyle....theres a few funny ones. props to pam you damn bastard who needs to be recognized so ehre it is. theeeeeeeen VIETNAM........THE BEST CLASS EVERRRRRRR!!!!!!! right.....hah.

im a sleepy fool, im always tired.

i cant play my oboe? can you?

ahhhh, saturday night will be alot of fun, i love new people...somtimes.

the parsley king will return. and i need a belt buckle

damn you dan. what are you independent from me now? dont need me to call you everynight?? what the hell is that?

you stupid mushy gooey love ppl im going to punch you all in the face, and no im not jealous. bastards. hahah. i laugh in the face of danger. except the one time we where all gunna get beat up and pat left. heh.

you all know what livejournals are for right? to inform the rest of the world of you and your pointless life, yet we all still do it. hmm right

later kids.

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 02:27:45 GMT

im getting wierd again. this suuuuuucks. maybe ill be better after...yea after that whole thing starts up. interesting, that should begin on thursday. hahah cant waittt ugggh.

im definatly miss bi polar.

i have the best desktop picture ever, and so does patrick, so can you if you please just im me.
i woke up this morning at 6, yes early but it was destiny. the sky was amaaaazing. absolutly beautiful. so i jump up grab my camera jump outside barefoot as usual and snap a few. my personal favorite and others is the one where the sky is on fire, its rediculously cool. its kinda like the one barker took, i like his though because of the rain drops and windowpane. dont worry barker it had its desktop fame for a while.

Sun, 07 Sep 2003 13:57:34 GMT

i hate tequilla.
i hate tequilla so much that its unfathomable.

and i cant spell that word.

last night...nikkis. the set up was very cool, tables and candles. kyle came, jr and some of his friends where there, minneo, bobby and justin showed up. me and kyle disapeared. me and kyle disapeared to my house, my grandparents where on to me....eppp

this morning. by far one of the worst mornings of my life.

they musnt find out!

im gunna go do my hw and try not to ralph on it...mm delicious

BeautiiflDisastr: thanks fool
Pammyj28: no prob fool
Pammyj28: you foolin foolie fool
BeautiiflDisastr: hahah that is me
Pammyj28: yea so guess what
BeautiiflDisastr: what
Pammyj28: gatorade rehydrates, replenishes, and refules
BeautiiflDisastr: i am aware
Pammyj28: aaaaaand
Pammyj28: hot dogs are already cooked for you
BeautiiflDisastr: i am also aware
BeautiiflDisastr: any more useless information you have for me?
Pammyj28: ok .. jello is made from a part ofthe bones in chicken
Pammyj28: but im sure you knew that one too
BeautiiflDisastr: no.
Pammyj28: yes
BeautiiflDisastr: no.
Pammyj28: yes
BeautiiflDisastr: your face is made of chicken bones
Pammyj28: um ok
BeautiiflDisastr: hmph.
Pammyj28: ah
Pammyj28: hmph ah hmph ah hmph ah...keep it goin amanda...
BeautiiflDisastr: um
Pammyj28: bla bla bla....bla bla aaaa...me bla bla bla bla blaaaa..blablalbaaa bla bla bla ... stand by me ... stand by me

what a wierrrrrdo....

Sat, 06 Sep 2003 14:04:51 GMT

so last night was great. went to kyles at 5 left at 5 30. we drove there. it wasnt to bad, we kept giving his mom and milly the middle finger on the hwy. so we get there, and the show is at roseland, friggen crazy amounts of people, the line was all the way around the block, if youve been there you know. so we met dan and jimmy and later beau on line and waiiiiit. finally we get in and brandnews on thier first song. so me kyle and amy ruuunnn in and jump in the crowd, we lost kyle but me and amy got waaaaaaay in there. right in the middle, 5 ppl away from the bar. the best place to be. thier set was pretty damn good but could never compare to their show at irving a little while ago. they only played five songs. me and amy found the mosh pit and hung out around there, jumping around, there where only about 10 guys moshing, the pit was so small and there where these girls i wanted to punch. they didnt get it. i was all like goooooo hommmmmme. yes. after thier set we( me and amy) went downstairs, came back up found everyone. then me and kyle went back down stairs and looked at pins. hmm interesting. mxpx was up next, heard about 3 of thier songs and then me and crazy kyle garnett left. thats right we left. ran out the door onto the city streets, we did not want to hear dashboard. we galavanted for about 3 hours. it was very cool and he is on crack, but so am i so it was fun. im not gunna even write down everything we did cause it will take a year and three days. so just say it was crazy amaaaaaaaaazing fun. then off to home. stopped at 7 11 and got slurpees went home with kyles ma and stayed at his house for about 30 mins or so and went home with milly. home at 1 45. such a fun night, just what i expected.

woo straylight run on sunday. with the same group of wierdos.

hmm school.......im not going any more.

hahahahh im a lazy bastard, im dropping spanish to take nam and health. i dont think im going to college, haaaaa. no.

todaaaaaaay must ride....maybe see barker......maybe see kyle.....maybe partyin tonight. do not know. all i know is its beautiful outside and im going to kill you dead.

kyles the mouth, justins the muscle. so watch it.

Thu, 04 Sep 2003 22:35:24 GMT

BeautiiflDisastr: damngermans
thr0wmearaven: i know
thr0wmearaven: they ruin everything
BeautiiflDisastr: im german
thr0wmearaven: o
thr0wmearaven: um
thr0wmearaven: i'll stand by my previous statement

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 00:23:31 GMT

hahahahhahhahahahha il iked today and the past 3 days wwhhe

now i could make this obvious and you could deny this all in one breathe

Tue, 02 Sep 2003 04:36:30 GMT

i feel like such a little girl, i cant tell the difference with this right now. som of you know what im talkin about.

well today was a very good second to last day of summer despite the weather, i had a very good time.

summers been way to much fun and i love my friends way to much.

amy, i told you this was going to be used against us, or for...

haha tommorow is going to be great.

im gunna go read one and a half books so i can waste my life away tommorow.

kyle should be shot because he doesnt like the first brandnew cd.

ughhhhh chillllllll man. seriously.

im rediculously excited for friday.......brandnew in the city :) cant take my smile away for anything. im gunna go crazy.

im really livn the life.

kick start my rockin rollin heart

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 16:30:15 GMT

sooooo the past two nights....hahah. crazyness. should have been doin this all summer.

i wish i could have stayed longer last night, to sit around the fire, but i was ushered into a car. hah....

sorry to you i say.

doin shotgun circles are fun.

hanging out on justins front porch was one of the nicest things all summer. it was just peaceful and to addd to it, we had justin and kyle playin justins new martin. very nice let me tell you. and happy late bday to justin.

if you havnt yet..check out the site...Gasoline Rainbow, its on my profile.

woo goin to the mall with pam and amy to be insane. like last time. i talked to a pole and made som kid cover his ears.

isnt it funny how ppl have the same quotes about the same thing? no no its not

i missed the show last night :( no worries i will be seeing them (atal, tripside) soon.

thats what you get when your fallin down...

Sun, 31 Aug 2003 13:16:36 GMT

its all in innocent fun.

and im still confused about myself, eeerr. hah.

anyway...yesterday was very very sad. im not gunna go into it.

but last night was quite a change. and haha i saw a couple things i didnt need to..heh. and poor kyle broke his glasses, do not no how but hah. caitlin says our nights should be a tv show. and i learned the coolest trick last night.

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 03:53:49 GMT

ahhhhhhh i found one.....props to dani

Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?...
Jack: & Jill
Tiffany: and i said, what about, breakfast at tiffanys...
Ben: g
Maria: grandma
Jennifer: jen?
Nicole: cousin
Adam: and eve
Justin: amywound
Arnold: hey!
Tom: Bies
Melissa: syco
Charlotte: 's web
Harold: harold
John: that song
Joel: thier friend
Vanessa: barn
Kevin: zags
Brent: wood
Jake: hottt
Billy: bob
Sarah: barn
Linda: barn
Taylor: um
Jordan: my cousin. whos a girl. her name is jordan. thats hott

~Have You Ever....~
Mooned anyone? hahah my cousins
Been on a diet? haha yea right
Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no i ripped em all out
Swear at a teacher? um no
Got in a fight? yea
Dated a teacher? uh
Thought about killing your enemy? yes
Told a little white lie? who hasnt?
Told a secret you swore not to tell? not the important ones
Been on tv? yap
Been in a mosh pit? yesss
Been to a concert? yesss
Dated one of your best friends? yes.
Loved someone so much it makes you cry? uhh ie last week
Decieved somebody close to you? yes sir :(
Been on an airplane? to many times
Got to ride on a firetruck? around the block
Cheated on a bf/gf? um
Terrorized a babysitter? shit ahha i have the funniest story
Made a mud pie? i played with mud alot does that count?
Snuck out of the house at night? not outta my house
Been so drunk you don't remember your name? youd have to be unconsious
Smoked? yess..
Done drugs? iif you can even consider it one
Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street? no...
Gone to camp? yes at so ho, i was a beast
Won a bet? yap
Written a love letter? yea but never sent it
Written a love poem? no
Kissed in the rain? yes. :(
Slow danced with someone you love? yepp
Faked an orgasm? ha no.
Asked a friend for relationship advice? hi yes.
Thrown up in public? hah yea
Bowled a perfect game? bowling sucks.
Failed/got held back? nope.
Got perfect attendance in grade school? no

~Childhood Stuff~
Did you play with Barbies? no...and im realizing im like the only one who didnt
Did you own Treasure Trolls? yea they came to school with me
Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? yea only when my mom wasnt paying attention
Did you play Simon? evil game
Did you watch Fraggle Rock? yes!!
Did you wet the bed? nope.
Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? do wolves count as monsters, cause i swear they where under there
Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? actually, no i didnt.
Were you shy? not at all.
Were you spoiled? ya
Were you abused? never.
Did you go to the circus? twice, i wish i hadnt the second time...big let down, dont try and relive childhood memories
Did you go to the zoo? yepp.
Were you in a car accident? yea a wee one
Did you build snowmen? yes. and a snow pony
Did you cry when you scraped your knee? yea once at the bus stop
Were your older cousins mean to you? no
Did you think slinkies were cool? when i didnt break them yea
Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? no but they where cool
Were you afraid of the dark? no
Did you have slumber parties? yea too many
Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas? no never
Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? no i never brushed it
Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? yea until 2nd grade

i didnt like that it hurt my neck, and you hurt my face

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 03:37:12 GMT

well that wasnt as bad as expected...i just have to go again.

soo today..horse...so me and casey went in the park after riding in the ring and about 15 mins from home we turn a corner and theres these two little minature ponies pulling a carrige, well julius and sedona didnt seem to like this. sedona leaped around and julius followed, except right on top of him. casey jumped off, julius ran with me on him. wheeeee fun for about 2 seconds. so i try and calm him down...haha yea right were prancing about 30 feet away from casey so i decide to get off so we dont galllop home or to some distant land. yea we start walking home with out casey because she fell in a hole. and we meet up with these dogs, on the other side of a fence, they wouldnt not shut up and were making so much noise so jules starts rearing and spinning around me in circles, when this stops i notice he is staning right infront of me staring at me flaring his nostrols and snorting. he looked pretty damn big at the moment. so then he starts like comming towards me..that kinda freaked me out so i jumped in the woods and stood to the side of him so he couldnt run me over, unless he knocked down the tree first. finally the dogs stopped and we continued on our way, w/o casey still.

quite and interesting day in the park.

i neeeed to watch lotr but i feel bad watching with out barker... since hes grounded and im not allowed over there, hah .

so excited for this weekend....block parties up the wazoo...lets see if i can keep to the code. the pirate code that is.

i definatly am a pirate. or maybe i just dig them.

but i am definatly mcguiver
or however you spell it

i need to send jonathanshaw some q tips, he runs out quickly. i no this because we are the same person. haaaaa but what does that have to do with qtips i ask?

id have to say this summer was probly one of the best, except for its crashing and burning in a firey haze end.

and i also think much of you would agree.

i want to do a survey.....this is me in search of a survey

im on fire and i think im ready......

Thu, 28 Aug 2003 20:09:11 GMT

haha i almost died today, that horse has it out to kill me.

ill explain later.